Unknown Feeling

I'm completely confused.

       Is this real or just another crush? I can't tell exactly. That's when you know that you are feeling the real thing right? When you don't know how and why you're feeling that something.

       All I know is I feel something for him. I don't know how. I don't know what it is. I don't know how and when it started. All I know is just there's something. I seriously miss him already.

       Yes, he doesn't know it. He knows that I feel something for him but he doesn't know the pain, my pain. He don't care. He'll probably never care. But I'm used to it. I always wonder who ever cared about how I feel.

       I wasn't meant for this. I wasn't meant for so much liking. The thing is, I easily get distracted by something that concerns my feelings. So maybe I should stop this now. Because if I won't, this something will just keep on dragging me down. And I shouldn't let it happen. Falling in love will never be my thing, it will never be for me.

Love? Maybe we should all learn how to grow in love, not just falling in love.

To that someone:
       Thank you for making me feel this something. Even though it all happened in just a short period of time, I'm still thankful that I experienced it because I learned something. I'm not acting like a bitter ex-girlfriend, I'm acting like a bitter one who fell for your trap. I'm saying that I just want to forget that you exist. Because that's what you did. That's how you act. You act like you don't even know I exist.