Is there somone?

          I was always wondering. Is there someone? Someone who is just like me? Someone who feels the same way as I do when I feel like I am always alone? Who knows her worth but only she, can see it?
          There are times when I think about how other people can get along well with each other within just a few hours or a day. I am so much envious with the fact that they’ve got that talent to the point that they can be left alone in a completely different environment because they can have someone to talk to, someone to be comfortable with in just a snap. ‘Cause I was never a good conversationalist.
          I can always recall my every first day on the schools I entered. I was always lonely, I got no one to talk to, and I am always at my assigned seat, looking at everyone while they try to get to know each other and can be best friends soon enough. I can still remember how some of them will ask what someome’s name is: normal people will say their name, and then proceed to telling some things about themselves while as for me, I’ll tell my name, and then end of conversation.
          Sometimes, I wonder what’s going on in someone’s mind every time they talk to me. Do they think I’m too boring? Do they think I am weird? Or do they even bother listening to what comes from my mouth every time I talk? I was also wondering. If I have a good speaking skills, maybe, just maybe, I can have so much loud, happier, and enjoyable life. Maybe I can have a good friendly relationship to someone I can be most confortable with; free from pretentions, from burden of unsaid thoughts. Sometimes, I try to think of the things where I’m good at; and I always end up with a conclusion, that I’m absolutely not good at anything.